After he committed suicide as he wished, he said： Your life is mine. Why do you give up？

　　Creation statement: This article is a fictional creation, please do not associate with reality.

　　"Gu Zhaozhao, you are as disgusting as your father. 」

　　He pinched my jaw and poured the bitter medicine into my mouth, making me breathless.

　　Later, I was humiliated and cut my wrist to commit suicide, but he covered my bleeding wound like crazy.

　　"Gu Zhaozhao, your life is mine, why do you give up? 」

　　01

　　Jiang Luming hates my guts. I always knew it.

　　He took me back to his house, but he used one set of torture devices on me behind his family's back.

　　He didn't allow me to go out at will, but he came back to accompany me every day, smelling of tobacco and choking to death.

　　I just took a shower and my hair was dripping wet, but I immediately heard the door lock being pulled.

　　Then, my lower back leaned against a strong chest and was tightly controlled.

　　He sniffed my body with lust, and then buried his head in my neck.

　　"Yes, just use this shower gel to wash off your dirty smell. 」

　　His deliberately low voice came from my ear, and the tone I heard was full of sarcasm.

　　His hands are never honest. In just a few minutes, he groped up and down and made my heart itch, but I didn't dare to resist.

　　I know too well the price of resistance ...

　　The chain on the bedside and the belt that made me tremble seemed to warn me to be as good as possible by his side.

　　If you can't escape, try to make yourself happy.

　　So I turned around and put my arms around his neck, and the ambiguous breath blew on his face.

　　"Jiang Liuming, today, I thought of a good way to torture me again. 」

　　He just smiled, then his head bit my earlobe, and then his other hand began to untie my towel belt.

　　"Today let you have a taste ... what it's like. 」

　　In fact, Jiang Luming is not handsome in general. At ordinary times, he wears gold-rimmed glasses at work, lazily draped on his tall nose, and his lips inlaid under it are rosy and soft, which has a fascinating magic.

　　No wonder, no wonder my father likes him so much that he has been raised for twelve years.

　　But who would have thought that one month after my father's death, my big brother, who had taken me from street to street, had a sudden change of attitude towards me and kept me in his world indifferently.

　　I was humiliated every day, and even he wanted to torture me to death.

　　02

　　Jiang Luming was never gentle when he did that kind of thing. At first, I just sobbed quietly. Later, he tied my hand with a belt and left a trail on my body.

　　I tilted my head, and tears as big as beans dripped on my pillow towel along my nose.

　　When feeling strong, Jiang Luming will kiss my tears to prevent them from falling, but it will also bite my lips.

　　After all this, he gave a contemptuous chuckle and put it in my ear.

　　"Why? Can't stand this insult? 」

　　"But once, your family has caused me much harm, and you can't imagine it! 」

　　But after he said these words, he would still loosen the belt that he held in his hand.

　　"Are you familiar with this belt? 」

　　He still smiles like that, but it gives me the creeps all over.

　　"Oh, I forgot, how can you be familiar with it? 」

　　"After all, your father ... will protect you very well. 」

　　After that, he rubbed my face with a deep smile, but we could clearly see the hatred in his eyes and his forbearing tears.

　　But how could I not know that the hypocrisy was hidden in the dark?

　　Our family is sorry for Jiang Luming. I ruined his life.

　　Well, in that case, I'm willing to spend my whole life making amends.

　　03

　　In my memory, my father is a respected professor, and his most proud pupil is Jiang Luming.

　　At that time, Jiang Luming's father was blind, his mother ran away, and his sister was stupid. My father not only taught him knowledge, but even found him a good odd job to subsidize his family.

　　I once asked my father why he was so kind to Jiang Luming.

　　My dad said that Jiang Luming was a genius, and he couldn't bear to see it fall.

　　The material level should not be a stumbling block to his success. My father wants to give him a push, and he should stand on the top and shine.

　　At that time, I felt that my dad must be Jiang Luming's Bole, and he must be grateful to my dad.

　　So in the past ten years, my father often kept him at home for dinner, or helped him with extra Olympic homework.

　　So Jiang Luming and I grew up together as childhood friends.

　　I call him Brother Jiang, and he will gently touch my hair.

　　One lollipop for each person, I often like to grab the one in his hand, and he won't say anything, just give me both.

　　Jiang Luming's math scores are very good, but I'm poor to death. I even sometimes suspect that I'm not my father's child at all, but Jiang Luming, who is extremely talented in math, is.

　　I always ask him to do my homework as a matter of course, and he never refutes it.

　　Jiang Luming is too good, I'm afraid he is better than his own brother.

　　Because having Jiang Luming around me is like having great confidence. He will never let me be wronged.

　　Because Jiang Luming is really a good brother to me, I have never resented him for taking away my father who loved me.

　　Because in my heart, Jiang Luming is equally important.

　　But my brother who is not related by blood, I am not willing to be just my brother.

　　So on that midsummer night, I dragged him to the high roof.

　　I kissed the corner of his mouth before he even recovered.

　　Maybe it's too hot in summer, or the evening breeze is too sultry. I clearly see the young man beside me with a red ear.

　　"Jiang Liuming, I like you. 」

　　"Do you like me too? 」

　　But he didn't answer me either, so I never waited for this answer.

　　04

　　Jiang Luming often stays at my house.

　　That night I hurried to find him in my slippers, but I broke the devil's secret.

　　The door was not closed, and I saw Jiang Luming's tears.

　　My dad pulled off the mask of hypocrisy, and every time he moved, he spat out a word that bound Jiang Luming.

　　"I advise you not to struggle, think about your family and the math you believe in ..."

　　"Mathematics is useless, it will only make ordinary people crazy, crazy for some unrealistic theories ..."

　　"Jiang Luming, I can make you, and I can break you ..."

　　It's raining outside, which seems to be washing away my inner guilt and unbearable.

　　Why is the truth of the matter like this? Why Jiang Luming?

　　I thought the years were quiet, but I was covered with a layer of yarn.

　　A layer of secret, dark yarn that I can't see through.

　　I was so scared that I ran away, and the postcard I was supposed to bring to Jiang Luming fell to the ground, so I couldn't pick it up.

　　The postcard is painted with sunflowers, and the golden sunshine is sprinkled on the sunflowers. Everything is so beautiful and bright.

　　It is ironic to send such a postcard at this time ...

　　No wonder, no wonder everything has a clue.

　　No wonder he never rebelled against some unreasonable behaviors I told him. He didn't dare.

　　No wonder he resists coming to my house for dinner like that. No wonder every time he is alone with us, his face will show an unnatural look.

　　No wonder I asked him whether he liked me or not that day.

　　He obviously blushed at the tip of his ear, but he left his face.

　　Run faster than the wind.

　　Why should I ask him to like me?

　　My dad is the devil who ruined his life, and I have the blood of the devil.

　　05

　　When I witnessed my father's death, I didn't even know how to look when I faced him.

　　My dad died. Tired driving made him fall on the steering wheel, and then there was an accident. The white suv was smashed into iron.

　　I ran to the scene like crazy, and the blood came out of the car and dyed the whole street red.

　　It rained heavily that day, so I just squatted there crying very dark.

　　I felt a pair of hands leaning over my eyes in a hazy way, and I knew it was Jiang Luming.

　　Only Jiang Luming can wash clothes with cheap soap of two yuan each.

　　At that time, I felt that my sky had collapsed, and I only had Jiang Luming.

　　But when I turned my head and asked him if he could take me back to his house, he passed my hand and his eyes were alienated and disgusted.

　　"Gu Zhaozhao, later you don't come to me. 」

　　"You are as disgusting as your dad. What makes you think that I will be different for you? 」

　　The word "disgusting" was almost uttered by Jiang Luming with his teeth clenched.

　　I remembered that night again.

　　I remembered my pretentious father, and he showed such a greedy and animal expression.

　　I carefully tugged at Jiang Luming's sleeve and said I was sorry again and again.

　　He didn't even look at me. My dad died and he was relieved.

　　That's right. Why should I ask him to hurt my sorrow?

　　My father not only destroyed Jiang Luming, but also destroyed many students.

　　They all have one common feature, that is, they are excellent, but their families are poor.

　　What's more, they all admire mathematics equally.

　　Poverty left them with no way out, so they had to put up with it again and again.

　　"Gu Zhaozhao, you roll. 」

　　"I don't want to see your family in my life. 」

　　06

　　After my father died, I completely lost my protection.

　　Those people who were once infringed by my father flocked to me.

　　They threw vegetable leaves and rotten eggs at me, and their mouths murmured, and those filthy words were output again and again.

　　They called my dad a pervert and called me a bastard.

　　After that, I was still not Japanese, so I came over to scratch my hair and kick my stomach.

　　I didn't feel any pain when I slapped my face, until finally I unconsciously wiped my nose and stained my sleeve with shocking blood.

　　My dad is dead, and he can't hide what he did.

　　So almost overnight, I changed from an excellent and progressive intellectual girl to the daughter of an obscene offender.

　　When I was in college, my classmates gnashed their teeth and asked me why I didn't die. They cut off my hair, threw away my books and splashed red ink all over my chair.

　　Anyway, they have done anything you can think of that doesn't please me. They call themselves messengers of justice and then punish me as a "devil's child".

　　Once I squatted down awkwardly to pick up my torn book, only to see Jiang Luming standing in front of me.

　　He asked the girl who bullied me, what crime did I commit?

　　The girl didn't speak, just giggled.

　　"His father is abnormal condition, senior will not know? 」

　　The elder sister said so, and the little ones who followed below were even more booing.

　　"Senior don't know? 」