＂All the enthusiasm will be attributed to the empty desert, but it seems to be ruthless.＂

　　The computer always calls me from time to time, but I know that maybe I don't need her so badly.

　　Like my lover, she said the word "lover", which made me feel practical. The sureness of that kind of distance and discretion is waiting, waiting, attracting and mourning. ??????

　　People always have to decorate their hearts, so as not to be empty and always make noises. ???

　　She doesn't fill my heart. It's a good feeling. I can think of her from time to time without having to prove anything wholeheartedly. ???????

　　She is not like others, and of course, she is nothing else.

　　It's just, strangely, when I face her, my mood is quite complicated. It's like every time we meet, it's for coitus. I don't like this relationship, but it seems that besides this, what else can I use to express the feelings of that moment? ???

　　If you live like an ordinary person, the other party will probably feel left out; If it's obviously not long enough like a close lover, I can't stand the kind of you, then turn around and leave; If you are like family and friends, the reality is already there, no, the slow flow of water is really unbearable. ?????????

　　I like the feeling of going thousands of miles away, a distant person, getting closer, suddenly happy, getting familiar with each other's life, feeling her life, and then leaving with a strange and a little impression. ????????????

　　When I turn on the computer, I always remember stop for a minute for a moment, so that I can know that she hasn't changed, so that I can continue to use her, and she still belongs to me. ????

　　I know this may be selfish. It's like not introducing her to friends because she is special. ?

　　Maybe my friends are aware of her, and I always show her existence from time to time. This is not a use, just to let those "Yingying Yanyan" know that I am not a man without a master. ??????

　　Maybe in the eyes of others, she is not so special, especially her desktop is always very simple. I don't like things that are too complicated. I am complicated enough. If she is still like this, I will only feel that I am controlled and bound, and even I can't live without her. I'm not, and I don't want this. ???????????????

　　In the final analysis, the relationship between lovers, of course, is as private as possible, and this kind of privacy is different. ?????

　　I mean, it doesn't show people, and I don't have to get in touch with the opinions of the world. Just, occasionally, I want to find a place to hide. Hide from what? Seek a clean, but also someone to accompany the clean. To find a place to live, you don't have to stay for so long, you don't have to be as warm as friends, and you don't have to be as familiar as family. Just stay quietly, and later, I need each other, and I need each other. ?????????????????????????

　　Besides, we don't touch each other's world, don't go deep into it, and don't care. Just like "Schrodinger's Cat", as long as you don't open "pandoras box", you don't need to know anything else.

　　What is a lover relationship? Sometimes, I wonder why so many people are keen on it. ???

　　If you think about it carefully, it's not lust for anything. It's just simple and pure, and then clean and assured. To put it bluntly, that feeling is more like a real ordinary person, allowing to be an ordinary person. ???????????

　　This is not easy, whether it is friends, family, lovers or even various relationships, it is always accompanied by various expectations and clearly makes you feel that expectation is everywhere, which is more like: either you are a tool or you are redundant.

　　Not only people, but also feelings are based on this. ???????????????

　　Lovers, with emotional ties, may need money, however, it can't cross the line, which is the tacit understanding between them. This is a bit like contentment, but unlike most people's understanding, its contentment is both passive and active, and its constant happiness is both ordinary and extremely difficult. ???????

　　It means that in front of the other person, you can be yourself boldly, and at the same time, the other person is also like this. It's like burn after reading.

　　Therefore, I turn off the computer, even if I don't use it, as long as it is around, the freedom that can be used at any time is comfort. ??

　　Speaking of it, many people pursue freedom, either thinking that freedom is arbitrary or that freedom can be rejected. I think these two kinds of freedoms are very sad. The former can only prove that you have no thoughts at all, while the latter shows that you live a depressed life. In other words, you don't even have time for yourself, time alone with yourself. In the final analysis, I don't know whether you can't bear it or not. There are too many things that you want and want. How can there be such a cheap thing in the world? ???????????????

　　I don't want partiality and need, I want partiality and can't get it, I get partiality and can't enjoy it, I enjoy partiality and dissatisfaction ... "Stop watching"! ??

　　Just like all words, it's good to stop. It's annoying to talk any more.

　　There are poems as evidence:

　　"All the enthusiasm will be attributed to the empty desert.

　　How many interpersonal relationships

　　Please each other.

　　It's all over.

　　We still have to fight ourselves alone

　　There is no comfort in losing.

　　win

　　no more applause

　　A true guru

　　Is the great loneliness in this loneliness.

　　It's nowhere to go when you fall

　　It's harmless and invasive when you smash. "

　　Affectionate, but always ruthless! Just lovers.