Xian yun ban ku cha

　　Text/Lin Weiguang

　　How to write the article? More and more confused, but I can't write, alas. I once wrote a thousand words, relying on horses to wait for me, that was youthful pride, and it all became a distant dream.

　　I have written millions of words, so I am not confident, and I am more and more make a fool of oneself, especially when I read other people's words, I only envy them. There are all kinds of good words in the world, but they are not what I can write. There is nothing I can do.

　　Hu Shizhi once said that an article is nothing more than writing what you say. This is what you mean and what you write. It seems easy to say, but it is extremely difficult to write, which is almost impossible.

　　It's impossible to say what you have first, even the advocate Mr. Ruyi can't do it. This involves telling the truth and revealing privacy. The Confessions of Rousseau, a philosopher, frankly presented his private life to others, and Mr. Zhishi also disclosed the privacy of prostitutes when he was young. However, it became more and more obscure later. People are smart and sophisticated, know how to choose, write and not write, and Zhitang Weng said "poetry and facts", which is what he meant. However, it is so good that even this is sometimes impossible, and I often have to tell lies and write words against my will. Ba Jin advocated "the truth" in his later years. Xiao Gan said that it is already a requirement to try not to tell lies, but it is hard to do it in the end.

　　It's not easy to write what you should say every time. We always have to embellish all kinds of pen and ink. The so-called "whitewash", or it's too much, but it can't be so simple and unpretentious. So, there are exaggerations, conceptualizations, cliches, eight-part flavor and seriousness. How many sincere words do we have to say? Zhitang's composition yearns for dilution, but he also said that people must be honest and debauched for writing. Finally, I have to work hard. Creation, in fact, has the composition of work. How can it be called creation without work? Mainly to see how to be closer to nature without trace-it can only be closer to nature. Wang Zengqi's article is very good, almost as light as water, and it is pleasant to read. However, this style of writing as light as water is also caused by painstaking efforts, and there are decades of hard work behind it, so he should emphasize "painstaking management" before casually. Dilution is the management without trace, and it is a creation close to nature. Zhitang Weng lamented: I can never do it myself. Even he is hard to achieve, and he is mediocre and incompetent like me!

　　Decades of years have passed like water, and people have been grinding ink and ink, and they have finally come to a disappointment and helplessness, so they have to sigh.

　　So, don't write more words, then write light words and doodle. People always have to do something boring, otherwise, this life will be too boring, and they always have to find some fun and kill this long and boring time.

　　Of course, this is also a dispensable thing. I once admired the sages, sitting in the sun, talking about fleas, telling anecdotes of the former dynasty, and remembering the romantic days of the old days. The ancients nicknamed it "negative Xuan". What a pleasure? But it's nothing more than a few boring people saying something light and stealing a half-day leisure. Zhang Zhongxing wrote in his later years, that is, ordered him to write "Negative Noisy Words" and "Negative Xuan Continued Words" at such a time. It was so carefree, with relish, scattered and faint, and the breeze blew, almost dull, separated from the present by a bright moon, which did not hinder current politics, but it was also good. Just, even if negative Xuan gossip, I don't have so much gossip to say, daily necessities, ordinary trifles, ordinary people, are all the same, and there is nothing to say.

　　Now, although the rest of my life is the rest of my life, I still have a lot of free time, so I don't have to steal it, so I can take it easy. Unfortunately, there is nothing to be said for it, and there is nothing to be said for it. So we have to be ignorant, look at the clouds coming and going, suffer from tea in a daze, and listen to the footsteps of time.

　　Is this a bit negative? People always have to work hard. This is what gentlemen say, which is solemn as if it were solemn. But I have to argue with him.

　　Send the rest of my life, which actually includes our whole life. Except the past, the future is the rest of my life. For example, a child of five or six years old, the time after five or six years old is the rest of his life for him. Of course, there is no need to imagine that there will be those who are "old and die, for thieves" so dim and negative.

　　Sending the rest of my life is an important key, which contains a positive and enterprising meaning. But I don't like it very much. I think it's still too active, sometimes too active, and it may not be good in the end. Because of this kind of positivity, we seem to be wary of its destructiveness, which contains a disruptive element. In short, it is not very good.

　　Of course, there are restless people in the blood of young people, especially the attempt to destroy them is more obvious. This is a bloody impulse, understandable. However, people always have to be mature. When they wash their hands of the golden basin, they look like a gentleman with eight steps, or they appear in the gesture of homesickness, but they are even more hateful, because what a fake word it is! Is a complete hypocrisy.

　　So, what is this sunny time after middle age? -this is my state now. In fact, I am not satisfied with this state of myself, saying that idle clouds are accompanied by bitter tea is of course a kind of self-mockery, but it is not as leisurely and leisurely as literally seen.

　　From idle clouds in middle age to bitter tea in old age, it seems to be a natural result, and there is no need for transition in the middle. The life realm of this bitter tea is green, but it is a pity that it is somewhat cold. People have stepped aside to be spectators, so they are perfunctory, not too negative, but not too positive.

　　In fact, this is a sophisticated performance, an old fox-like state of life, hehe. What do you think? How to look down on it? I don't know.

　　It is difficult to know people, especially to know friends, and it is not difficult for people to know me. Cao Xueqin, who wrote "The Story of the Stone", once said, If you add or delete ten years, who can understand the flavor? For more than 200 years, Dream of Red Mansions has become a flourishing school, and how many Redology scholars have been supported? However, there are different opinions about innuendo, research and autobiography, and no one can agree. Who can understand the flavor? I am writing this article to express my heartfelt wishes. Although the article is embarrassing, who can understand its taste? Let's stop writing.