Idle people's troubles

　　Original title: The troubles of idle people

　　Liu cuiqin

　　I have to admit that I have a lot of leisure time this holiday, but strangely, the more leisurely I am, the lazier I am, and I don't want to do anything.

　　Originally, I planned to use my vacation to read, write and travel. As a result, nearly a month passed, and I only read two books, revised several old ones, and only sent one when I submitted it. As for the travel plan, I was completely defeated in the hot weather. Then what have I done? Washing clothes, cooking and cleaning, I didn't delay these housework when I went out early and returned to work late. How come I am busy with these things every day after the holiday? Sometimes, when I turn on the computer, I want to find out some topics I have planned before and write about them, but I can't find the original intention of writing. To make matters worse, I searched for the publication of my manuscript. If I couldn't find it everywhere, I was so depressed that I immediately turned off my phone and seriously doubted my ability. If you find that your manuscript has been published in a newspaper or received a manuscript fee, you feel that you are vulgar while you are happy: you are either happy or sad because of a few pieces of money.

　　One day, the postal clerk who sent the money order asked curiously, "There is only 40 yuan money. What money is it?" I happily replied: "the manuscript fee." "Oh, it's manual profit (hard work)." Yes, it's just a little hard work. But this hard work is really not easy to get. Needless to say, burning the lamp costs oil, which also hurts brain cells, cervical vertebrae and eyes, and even hurts self-confidence. The paper media has shrunk, and people who have time to write have emerged in large numbers. For example, if I am a nameless person, I want an article to be published in a newspaper or magazine, not only by reading words, but also by luck. Sometimes, when a self-satisfied text is submitted, it sinks into the sea. Sometimes, an editor has sent a picture saying that a manuscript is to be published in which issue, but there is no follow-up. He asks in fear and trembling, but he is told that his publication has stopped. Whether it is true or not, there is no way to ask. Thank you, I have never seen the rivers and lakes since then, and I will bypass his home in the future to avoid embarrassment again.

　　The old people in the community either get together in small groups and ramble, or look for someone to play cards early in the morning. Sometimes they feel that they are really killing their lives, and sometimes they envy their lack of desire and ask themselves, why can't they live as easily as they do?

　　I've had a toothache for two days, and I can't sit still, and taking medicine doesn't work. My body always reminds you of the existence of a certain part in a painful way. The body is like this, so is the mind. I think toothache is still caused by my inner uncleanness and excessive internal heat. Chatting with a colleague who retired for half a year, listening to his words, retirement not only saves a lot of money, but also is extremely uncomfortable with the boredom of suddenly being idle. After smelling it, I feel that my toothache is even worse.

　　One day, I read an article saying that the word "leisure" was originally written as "leisure", which means closing the door to kill time, so I suddenly realized that my distress was because I didn't want to be idle. Life is really bitter, always try to make yourself happy. My favorite thing is to record my life and mood in words. Whenever I write, my heart is at ease. Although sometimes I am annoyed by "getting stuck" and sometimes I am annoyed by not being published, it is also a sweet worry.

　　Source: Zhonggong. com-Workers Daily